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I want to be in Vermont
Jun. 25th, 2007 01:39 pmThere are times when the "world is too much with me". This seems to be one of those times. I'm tired even when I've gotten a fairly decent night's sleep. I'm restless. I'm crabby when I have no real reason to be. And when I do have a reason to be on edge, it seems I go over that edge too easily. Is it perimenopause rearing its ugly head? Am I just a bitch? You'd think I would know my place in the world by now. I shouldn't be upset about wanting things I cannot have. And yet... the human condition does seem to lend itself to wanting the impossible. To always looking towards the horizon for that something else, something more. I suppose that is what makes us who we are - otherwise we might never have climbed out of the ooze.
Do I want more? Or do I just want something else? I love my kids, my job. I am in love but there is always that nagging fear that the balance in the relationship is decidedly slanted, and not in my favor. I need to get over my desire to be treated the way I treat other people. It only makes me frustrated and sad.
Do I want more? Or do I just want something else? I love my kids, my job. I am in love but there is always that nagging fear that the balance in the relationship is decidedly slanted, and not in my favor. I need to get over my desire to be treated the way I treat other people. It only makes me frustrated and sad.
